Vacation Bible School

This last week has seen many firsts, and this morning's was a biggie. 

Don't laugh.

Today was the first time I've ever dropped my kids off and left them somewhere with people I don't know. 

They were fine. I was a mess.

I did leave them at a lesson one time last month to order a cake for their half-birthday party. I know the teachers there very well by now though and I was only gone 20 minutes.

Today, it's for three hours. 

Today was their first day of Vacation Bible School. I know a few of the people who are volunteering and the kids know several other kids who are there. 

I was still a mess.

They walked right in, sat down and started talking to the other kids in their group. 

I got back to the car, sat down and cried.

For those of you who dropped off your 6- or 12-week-olds at daycare, I don't know how you did it. You are stronger than I am. 

I leave to go pick them up in a few minutes, and I know that they will have had a blast. I'm constantly checking the schedule to see what they're doing. I can't wait to hear about their morning and all that they learned about Jesus.

I hope tomorrow is a little easier. 

This morning, Karyssa asked me if I would miss her. I said of course I would miss her. She answered, "I'll miss you too, Mommy, but when I'm out there, you'll be in my heart." 

Maybe I have an unnatural attachment to my kids. Some people think so. I think I love them. I think being away from them for the first 54 nights of their life may not have helped either. 

It's weird being in this house without them. I can't imagine next year when they go to kindergarten. 

I had the opportunity to volunteer to help, but if I had, it would have been more for me than for the VBS. I think it's good for me, and the kids, to have some time apart. 

Especially after the week we just had. But I'll get to that later.